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(no subject) [Oct. 24th, 2006|09:44 pm]
Dreams of Blue Sky

Just turned 17 and I figured that a new year deserves a new journal.  Because dreamsofbluesky is a stupid name.

Attention ladies and gentlemen: please head over to 



for future sporadic updates on Connie's life and fanworks.



Now would be a good time to drop me from your friends list if you have grown sick of my whining.  

Now would also be a good time to add me, if you have somehow fallen in love with said whining.  Just leave me a note so I can ascertain that you're not some crazy psycho killer.

Thank you.

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(no subject) [Oct. 6th, 2006|09:05 pm]
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Otherwise known as the 'Lantern Festival' or 'Moon Festival'.  

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(no subject) [Sep. 25th, 2006|05:34 pm]
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My mum's in hospital.  I put her there.  I'm so fucking scared.  We had another fight yesterday - it began with just another argument - then she threw a book at my head and lunged for me.  I fought back.  My dad and brother couldn't stop us because we were just screaming our hearts out and kicking and punching and literally clawing at each other.  At first I was just being defensive - she had never attacked me so fiercely before and I was surprised, scared - but after she managed to push me to the ground and began kicking me continuously, I lost control and just threw myself onto her, scratching and wrestling her away.  During the fight I lashed out and scratched her face near her left eye and she winced, but I didn't think much of it because she just immediately came running back at me.  

The fight ended as it usually does, with my dad and brother just grabbing each of us and tearing us apart.  We began arguing again and I was once again threatened with the whole 'you're never going to the UK for university' thing.  Actually, this time they promised me that I'm not going to university, period, but whatever.

The moment I got back from school today there was a phonecall from my dad.  He's at the hospital because apparently I had injured a nerve near her eye, I don't know what  - he didn't have time to tell us much about it - and my mum is going to stay overnight at the hospital.  What if she partially lost her sight?  What if this is permanent?  I don't know what I've done and I'm just fucking terrified because I didn't mean to hurt her like this, I was just scared.  

This isn't the worst fight we've had but I'm just sick of this now.  My mum is not a bad person and we have our good times when everything seems just fine and happy.  And then days like these come along and I realize that we're just too much alike to ever get along permanently.  Both too headstrong, too proud, both too unwilling to give up and say sorry and admit that we were wrong.   

Someone please come and tell me everything will be ok. 

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Nejiten fic: Summertime [Aug. 22nd, 2006|09:59 pm]
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School starts this Friday and I have a 4000 word essay to write comparing The Great Gatsby to a Chinese classic, Tai Pei People.  Of course, I've been industriously working away at everything else that doens't need working at.  Like this.  

Written for the ten_squared community's monthly theme, Shifting Seasons.

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(no subject) [Aug. 9th, 2006|09:38 am]
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Mmm,  I should be doing homework.  


Well, because I am pretty bored and having nothing better to do, I have here assembled a random collection of photos.  =]


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(no subject) [Aug. 1st, 2006|10:45 pm]
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I feel like shit.  Yea, my parents tend to have that affect on me. 

Why do I never update with something happy?  

I'm going to post something happy soon.

I'm going to be happy soon.

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(no subject) [Jul. 11th, 2006|10:44 pm]
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As I'm sure most of you have heard, Colleen Graffy, Deputy Assistant Secretary of State for Public Diplomacy for the USA, has labelled the suicides of three Guantanamo Bay prisoners as 'publicity stunts'.

Well, if they were, then you better be listening up you dumb f*cker.

I don't get it; I really don't.  These three people - because they are PEOPLE, HUMANS, damnit - these three have suffered so much that they decided to end their own lives.  Jesus.  They decided to KILL THEMSELVES.  How can someone just dismiss this as if it was just some PR move? How? 

This is why I have chosen to take Law next year at university, instead of Archaeology.  I want to study something that could help in the future, instead of just looking back into the past.  My parents want me to take commercial law, since it is relatively easy to earn money if you practice in that area - but I'm going to opt for International Law instead, which covers issues like human rights and such.  I've read that there is a shortage of lawyers qualified and willing to help prisoners of war, worldwide, and in other international aid agencies.

  I don't know.....people say that the teenage years are when we think and act naively, when we have wild, unrealistic dreams.  Money is and will be an issue, I know, but right now my goal is to work for the UN some time in my career.  And really, I'd rather be naive and unrealistic than sit there and rot and earn money but never know if I could have helped.  

AEFSJEGJSEJGSEOjgseg.  Second official day of my summer holidays and I'm complaining already  XD


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(no subject) [Jun. 14th, 2006|10:32 pm]
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Oh no, not again~!

Soooo, I've got a lot of pretty bruises because my fucked up excuse for a mother (oh my, perhaps I should mind my language like a good little girl..........NAH)  decided to kick me repeatedly in my thigh.  Usually she just makes do with pulling my hair or slapping me but nooo, this time she HAD to pull my hair so that I would fall to the ground AND kick me.  My legs look lovely, all blue down one side and all pink on the other (I blame the deadly Hong Kong mosquitos.)  

GODDAMNIT.  I'm not angry anymore - the fight was hours ago when I came back from school and I'm just feeling drained and bone tired right now - but ARGH.  *bangs head against telephone directory*  Thank God my dad wasn't here or we'd just have a rerun of that fucked up night two months back when they both beat me (and I hit them back but shhhhh).

She threw half my stuff away while I was at school.  Half.  A lot of trinkets that my friends gave me, my teddy bear, all my precious things.......all gone. She didn't even bother telling me when I got home - I only found out when I trooped up to my room and found it practically bare.  

END RANT HERE, because these things are inevitable in my family, really, and I'll never stop arguing with my mum.  Just when I thought things were getting better too......OK YES END RANT HERE.

On a slightly happier note. 

Exams are over, as is my life.  I did fairly well, I suppose, though predictably I performed to only a slightly-above-average level in Math.  AH WELL >_> que sera, sera.  *is sure she got that saying wrong but ah damnit*

I've been trying to finish the next chapter of Captain Neji and the Hidden Straits of Death these last few days - it's the only thing cheering me up apart from my lovely friends - but school work, my parents and the heavens themselves are conspiring against me.  It's been raining non stop.  The skies are gloomy.  My hair is wet.   I've only got the first half done so far ><"  

Wish me luck!  
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(no subject) [Jun. 4th, 2006|12:34 pm]
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June 4:  17th Anniversary of the Tiananmen Massacre.

[ Hong Kong marks Tiananmen deaths ]

[ Interview of student witness ]


Photograph by Associated Press photographer Jeff Widener, depicting a lone protester, whose actions halted the progress of a column of advancing tanks for over half an hour.

Student death count (not including other civilian deaths): exact figure unknown, thought to be at least 3000.  


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(no subject) [May. 30th, 2006|10:19 pm]
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So, I had my economics exam yesterday and english this morning.  Thankfully both were pretty easy ^___^.  

But MATH is on thursday and I am SO DEAD.  

Seriously.  What I get will directly affect the predicted grades my teachers send off to universities >< meaning if I don't do well I won't be able to even APPLY to any of the good universities I want to get into.  ARGHH!!  ARGGHHH!  *bashes head against wall* 

Meanwhile, I have discovered something new to fuel my rebel-without-a-cause urges to rage against something (anything):

Guns N' Roses are naming their new album Chinese Democracy.


I am so fucking sick of all these bands making cliched political statements in their songs or albums.  What are they trying to do?  Personally I feel that they're just trying to prove that they're all hardcore and hardline and political and shit and blah blah blah blah yea we heard it all before.  


I'm not saying that it's wrong to criticize the Chinese government.  The Chinese government is far from perfect, and I believe that constructive criticsm, raising awareness of real, problematic issues are beneficial to both the Chinese and the rest of the international community.  But really - 

a)  democracies are NOT the only way to go for future governments, assholes.  I mean, look at the USA.  Frankly, I'd prefer Hu Jin Tao over George Bush anytime so just stfu ok?

b)  I bet Guns N' Roses know SHIT about what it is like to be Chinese.  So China is not a democracy.  SUE US.  So your album title is all ironic and witty and rebellious and all but really - but really, it's merely degrading to all the activists who are actually out there, trying to make a difference, trying to make China a better country for its citizens.

I bet their lyrics are gonna go contain all this cliched crap about the lack of democracy in China.  Ooh look, 'democracy' rhymes with 'hypocrisy'!  I bet they're gonna put that in as well.  OH TEH POLITICAL ANGST.

Perhaps I'm over-analyzing this.  Perhaps it's not meant to be a political statement.  However, the title clearly carries connotations that are both insulting and potentially inflammatory.  

It's actually even worse if its not intended as a political statement - 
look at this~!

So it's a competition now?  Make degrading remarks about a country with ONE FIFTH OF THE WORLD's POPULATION for the sake of the pride of a few shitty bastards?  FOR FUCK'S SAKE.  They should get a brain or jump off a cliff or something.  

I mean, come on.  Why not name the album IRAQ's FREEDOM or HIROSHIMA or GEORGE's WISDOM? 

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